Intestinal Endometriosis

I had my initial G.I. appointment today - her initial thoughts/hopes is that my intestinal problems are "only" endometriosis tissues INSIDE my intestines. I'm hoping it's "only" that too.  She said she has seen it before and that with my history with endometriosis that it is highly likely. Of course, there could also be polyps, etc., but we are hoping for something "simple" like endo tissue inside an organ! LOL

I LOL in jest. I'm really kinda... a bit scared. I thought 'for sure' that MAYBE it was a possibility that I had endo tissues on the OUTSIDE starting to constrict a section of my intestines - and that could still be! BUT, I never even considered the fact that I could have tissue INSIDE.

So, anyway, tissues inside - also causes a leaky gut syndrome.  A leaky gut syndrome can also let endo tissues inside the intestines.  Endo tissues inside the intestines can also cause problems with food allergies - gluten intolerance - fibromyalgia or fibromyalgia-like symptoms.  It's all related!  I'll be happy to know what's going on in there.

So, next Wednesday I'll be drinking the "stuff" and Thursday I'll be under the scope! It happens to be Matt's birthday that day too.  In 2006 when I had my big surgery - the date was decided on October 4th - my surgery was the 10th.  In 2007, I relapsed on Oct. 6th'ish. In 2008 Oct. 4th was, I think, normal. In 2009, October 10th I was  hired at the library, so that was a GREAT year!!!  I don't remember anything to significant about 2010 and 2011, but now 10-4-2012 will have another surgery on it.  I hate ruining his birthday!!!!

ABC - A Good Friend

 I had a hard time finding information about this statue, but it's in Montreal. I think the photo may have been taken by: Stock Photograph by Darlene Bordwell 

I'm not a very good friend. I'm not nearly as good a friend as my girlfriends are to me.  I have a bestie that has stayed by my side through years of love, laughter, neglect, hormones and children.  There is another bestie - she and I connected in school, lived lightyears and lifetimes apart, but reconnected as adults only to realize that she/I/we were the best-friend that we didn't know we had.

 That would be me whining to my two besties...

These two women are so incredibly and intricately intertwined into my being that if I were to lose either one of them I would feel like I lost a major limb or organ.  Everyone should be so blessed to have just one friend like these women are to me. I am incredibly LUCKY and BLESSED to have two of them!

A stone statue of three women on a rock Stock Photo - 4250451 123rf.com

Well... we definately do NOT look like these women! LOL

Greek Like Statue of Three Women Embracing, La Serena, Chile, South America ...

art.com

Nor do we resemble Greek women...

The Three Graces at the Louvre

Not my photo - it's a flckr photo.

And... I have to say that we have never stood around naked with one another.  However, Renae did let me feel the lump in her breast.

I think we are a curvaceous combination of all of these women.

ABC - What Would Oprah Say?

Oprah’s first question to you would be? 

I imagine that I'm talking to Oprah because I have just recently published my Memoirs and she wants to know, "Are you SURE this isn't fiction?" She would probably continue by asking, "Are you on medications to remain sane?" To which I would reply with laughter and say, "Nope, not a thing!"  She would sit back in her chair and just laugh with me.  My dream.

ABC - Best and Worst 1st Date...

My best and worst first date were one in the same. Fortunately, he married me anyway!

Hubby and I were in high school. On our first date, he took me out to eat at Rocky Rococo's  Pizza. Little did I know that Rocky's pizza would literally cause a "rapid detox" of my intestinal system! We weren't 5 min. out of the restaurant and I needed a bathroom right away. He asked if I wanted to go back to the restaurant, but I asked him to just take me home - about 5-10 more min. away.

So, he gets me home - we lived in a trailer home at the time. Please read: Very thin walled housing with no sound proofing at all. I just make it to the bathroom after a hasty - "Hi-Mom,-this-is-Matt,-I-gotta-go-to-the-bathroom,-please-say-hello!" ZOOMING past my Mom, leaving my brand-new boyfriend in the dust.  Fortunately, Mom knew to keep the radio on! LOL (Thanks, Mom.)

After I get out of the bathroom, we leave again to go who knows where and my Mom proceeds to pinch my new boyfriend in the ass on the way out the door!  Good grief! (Yeah... thanks, Mom!)

It was our first date, but he still kept coming for more!

ABC - Being Alone vs. Loneliness

I hate being…. lonely.

Being alone does not necessarily mean that I am experiencing the feeling of loneliness.  I don't mind solitude. What I mind is the feeling of loneliness. That feeling of not having anyone that can comprehend what I am going through. The feeling of not being able to SHARE what I am experiencing.  The feeling that even though my loved ones love me unconditionally, they do not and can not comprehend what I am experiencing.

That's when I feel lonely.

That's usually the time when God will send something my way to let me know that I am not in this on my own.  Most recently, I have gluten issues and a friend just shared the scripture, Matthew 4:4 "...Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone,..." that made me cry. I was so happy to receive that nugget of love from God - through the email  of a friend.

Sometimes, the feeling of loneliness goes deeper than just dietary. It goes deep into my memory banks - repressed memories that must stay wherever they are so that I can function in this life.  There are times when the feeling of loneliness is spiritual... I no longer believe in the everlasting need for organized religion, sometimes following the path that I believe to be the true way to God is a solitary one. At the very least, not heavily populated.

Lace-filtered light.

Ahhh... but being alone, now that is something that we can all use from time-to-time. Alone time to unwind, decompress, read, create, love, cuddle, bask in the warmth of someone or of sunshine. Watching the light filter through the lace curtain of my studio... Listening to the memory invoking sound of the mourning dove... Letting the warmth of freshly made peanut butter fudge melt in my mouth... All soul-filling times of solitude that I savor and hold deep in my inner-most self.

One of My Favorite Songs -- Right Now

ABC - These are a few of my favorite things....

It's a simple question really, "List three things that are important to you."  However, it is tremendously challenging to pick "just three".  I will exclude my three guys - they aren't things...

I'm going to guess that this means material items, so I'm going to go with that thought process.

Revlon ColorStay Eyeliner

The blacker the better!

My MP3 Player

Gotta have my music!

Although this is an INCREDIBLY OLD photo of me - it's my 

digital camera

that I want you to notice.

...not the 20# heavier face of me...